There's a short in my switch
 

You know how sometimes we talk about the 'switch,' that indefinable
moment when weight loss became possible? Well, mine's got a short or
something's gone haywire with the circuitry. I did fine last week. But
since my WI, my eating's gone off the deepend. Don't know what set it
off, but I just can't seem to stop. Well, not entirely true.
Yesterday, I ate well under my points after 3 days of overeating. But
today, I ate over points again and my 35 flex points are long gone.
What's going on? For one, I think I have a mental block about 20 daily
target points. 22 points I can do, no problem. Something happens,
though, when I drop to 20 points: I think I'm going to starve, which
then sets off all sorts of cravings.

Another thing I'm battling is feeling fat. I take jeans and shirts and
underwear out of the dryer and wonder who I thought I was kidding when
I bought such small clothes, or i figure that maybe they've shrunk
because surely those things won't fit me. As I type this, it's
laughable. But when I'm standing in front of the dryer, I'm not
laughing. In fact, I'm close to tears because I truly do despair about
what I'm going to wear now that all my fat clothes have been donated.
I put my clothes anyway and when I get dressed in the morning,
everything fits. If I keep eating, though, that won't last.

I mentioned all this today to a friend at work, and she looked at me
like I was crazy and said "Where could you possibly feel fat! My gawd,
you are so skinny." Honestly, I just don't see it. My head still sees
me back at 232 and feeling bad about much I weigh. And then those
people inside my head start taunting me: since I'm fat and will always
be fat, I might as well eat.

So that's what I'm dealing with. I'm gonna keep fighting this because
the rational part of my brain is still functioning. And I do not want
to go back. This week, though, I'll consider it a victory just to go
to my WI. I'm going to try to go to the meeting early and talk to the
leader. Thanks for listening.
--
Linda P
232/148.8/10% goal: 138

I don't think I can offer you any good information on how to go
about getting over the "feeling fat" issue. You are
definitely not fat! As soon as I ready your post I felt for you and
wanted to let you know that I was thinking of you.
Talking it over with your leader at your next WI is a great idea,
perhaps she can offer some information that will help. Good luck
Linda.
(((((HUGS)))))

Brenda

"Prairie Roots" wrote in message
...
You know how sometimes we talk about the 'switch,' that indefinable
moment when weight loss became possible? Well, mine's got a short or
something's gone haywire with the circuitry. I did fine last week. But
since my WI, my eating's gone off the deepend. Don't know what set it
off, but I just can't seem to stop. Well, not entirely true.
Yesterday, I ate well under my points after 3 days of overeating. But
today, I ate over points again and my 35 flex points are long gone.
What's going on? For one, I think I have a mental block about 20 daily
target points. 22 points I can do, no problem. Something happens,
though, when I drop to 20 points: I think I'm going to starve, which
then sets off all sorts of cravings.

Another thing I'm battling is feeling fat. I take jeans and shirts and
underwear out of the dryer and wonder who I thought I was kidding when
I bought such small clothes, or i figure that maybe they've shrunk
because surely those things won't fit me. As I type this, it's
laughable. But when I'm standing in front of the dryer, I'm not
laughing. In fact, I'm close to tears because I truly do despair about
what I'm going to wear now that all my fat clothes have been donated.
I put my clothes anyway and when I get dressed in the morning,
everything fits. If I keep eating, though, that won't last.

I mentioned all this today to a friend at work, and she looked at me
like I was crazy and said "Where could you possibly feel fat! My gawd,
you are so skinny." Honestly, I just don't see it. My head still sees
me back at 232 and feeling bad about much I weigh. And then those
people inside my head start taunting me: since I'm fat and will always
be fat, I might as well eat.

So that's what I'm dealing with. I'm gonna keep fighting this because
the rational part of my brain is still functioning. And I do not want
to go back. This week, though, I'll consider it a victory just to go
to my WI. I'm going to try to go to the meeting early and talk to the
leader. Thanks for listening.
--
Linda P
232/148.8/10% goal: 138

I don't think I can offer you any good information on how to go
about getting over the "feeling fat" issue. You are
definitely not fat! As soon as I ready your post I felt for you and
wanted to let you know that I was thinking of you.
Talking it over with your leader at your next WI is a great idea,
perhaps she can offer some information that will help. Good luck
Linda.
(((((HUGS)))))

Brenda

"Prairie Roots" wrote in message
...
You know how sometimes we talk about the 'switch,' that indefinable
moment when weight loss became possible? Well, mine's got a short or
something's gone haywire with the circuitry. I did fine last week. But
since my WI, my eating's gone off the deepend. Don't know what set it
off, but I just can't seem to stop. Well, not entirely true.
Yesterday, I ate well under my points after 3 days of overeating. But
today, I ate over points again and my 35 flex points are long gone.
What's going on? For one, I think I have a mental block about 20 daily
target points. 22 points I can do, no problem. Something happens,
though, when I drop to 20 points: I think I'm going to starve, which
then sets off all sorts of cravings.

Another thing I'm battling is feeling fat. I take jeans and shirts and
underwear out of the dryer and wonder who I thought I was kidding when
I bought such small clothes, or i figure that maybe they've shrunk
because surely those things won't fit me. As I type this, it's
laughable. But when I'm standing in front of the dryer, I'm not
laughing. In fact, I'm close to tears because I truly do despair about
what I'm going to wear now that all my fat clothes have been donated.
I put my clothes anyway and when I get dressed in the morning,
everything fits. If I keep eating, though, that won't last.

I mentioned all this today to a friend at work, and she looked at me
like I was crazy and said "Where could you possibly feel fat! My gawd,
you are so skinny." Honestly, I just don't see it. My head still sees
me back at 232 and feeling bad about much I weigh. And then those
people inside my head start taunting me: since I'm fat and will always
be fat, I might as well eat.

So that's what I'm dealing with. I'm gonna keep fighting this because
the rational part of my brain is still functioning. And I do not want
to go back. This week, though, I'll consider it a victory just to go
to my WI. I'm going to try to go to the meeting early and talk to the
leader. Thanks for listening.
--
Linda P
232/148.8/10% goal: 138

Have you thought about eating 22 pts.. but having only 25 flex pts instead
of 35 ?

No matter how much you over eat... you don't want to go below your target
the following day.. your pts target is a constant.. even if you ate all your
flex pts until next july.. you still have your pts target everyday..

You're NOT FAT Linda, but your mind needs time to catch up with your body..
Look at yourself in the mirror and hold a picture of you when you started..
not the differences.. if you can't see them... bring a loved one to the
mirror and have them point them to you (I did this.. with my husband... he
thought I was nuts but did it anyway.. it turned out fun actually.. *grin*)

Take a deep breath lady.. you've done awesomely great.. this is just a
phase.. and it WILL pass.. This season is very emotionnaly charged.. add
that to the major change in your body and in your lifestyle.. no wonder it's
getting confused in there..

But you HAVE made significant changes.. and the results ARE real.. give it
time... find a way to spoil yourself.. and to relax.. other than food that
is.. ;o)

We are here to vent to... anytime... :o)

--
Will~

196.2 / 133.4 / 137 lbs
89 / 60.5 / 62.1 Kg

Personal goal 125 lbs / 56.7 Kg
"Prairie Roots" wrote in message
...
You know how sometimes we talk about the 'switch,' that indefinable
moment when weight loss became possible? Well, mine's got a short or
something's gone haywire with the circuitry. I did fine last week. But
since my WI, my eating's gone off the deepend. Don't know what set it
off, but I just can't seem to stop. Well, not entirely true.
Yesterday, I ate well under my points after 3 days of overeating. But
today, I ate over points again and my 35 flex points are long gone.
What's going on? For one, I think I have a mental block about 20 daily
target points. 22 points I can do, no problem. Something happens,
though, when I drop to 20 points: I think I'm going to starve, which
then sets off all sorts of cravings.

Another thing I'm battling is feeling fat. I take jeans and shirts and
underwear out of the dryer and wonder who I thought I was kidding when
I bought such small clothes, or i figure that maybe they've shrunk
because surely those things won't fit me. As I type this, it's
laughable. But when I'm standing in front of the dryer, I'm not
laughing. In fact, I'm close to tears because I truly do despair about
what I'm going to wear now that all my fat clothes have been donated.
I put my clothes anyway and when I get dressed in the morning,
everything fits. If I keep eating, though, that won't last.

I mentioned all this today to a friend at work, and she looked at me
like I was crazy and said "Where could you possibly feel fat! My gawd,
you are so skinny." Honestly, I just don't see it. My head still sees
me back at 232 and feeling bad about much I weigh. And then those
people inside my head start taunting me: since I'm fat and will always
be fat, I might as well eat.

So that's what I'm dealing with. I'm gonna keep fighting this because
the rational part of my brain is still functioning. And I do not want
to go back. This week, though, I'll consider it a victory just to go
to my WI. I'm going to try to go to the meeting early and talk to the
leader. Thanks for listening.
--
Linda P
232/148.8/10% goal: 138

Have you thought about eating 22 pts.. but having only 25 flex pts instead
of 35 ?

No matter how much you over eat... you don't want to go below your target
the following day.. your pts target is a constant.. even if you ate all your
flex pts until next july.. you still have your pts target everyday..

You're NOT FAT Linda, but your mind needs time to catch up with your body..
Look at yourself in the mirror and hold a picture of you when you started..
not the differences.. if you can't see them... bring a loved one to the
mirror and have them point them to you (I did this.. with my husband... he
thought I was nuts but did it anyway.. it turned out fun actually.. *grin*)

Take a deep breath lady.. you've done awesomely great.. this is just a
phase.. and it WILL pass.. This season is very emotionnaly charged.. add
that to the major change in your body and in your lifestyle.. no wonder it's
getting confused in there..

But you HAVE made significant changes.. and the results ARE real.. give it
time... find a way to spoil yourself.. and to relax.. other than food that
is.. ;o)

We are here to vent to... anytime... :o)

--
Will~

196.2 / 133.4 / 137 lbs
89 / 60.5 / 62.1 Kg

Personal goal 125 lbs / 56.7 Kg
"Prairie Roots" wrote in message
...
You know how sometimes we talk about the 'switch,' that indefinable
moment when weight loss became possible? Well, mine's got a short or
something's gone haywire with the circuitry. I did fine last week. But
since my WI, my eating's gone off the deepend. Don't know what set it
off, but I just can't seem to stop. Well, not entirely true.
Yesterday, I ate well under my points after 3 days of overeating. But
today, I ate over points again and my 35 flex points are long gone.
What's going on? For one, I think I have a mental block about 20 daily
target points. 22 points I can do, no problem. Something happens,
though, when I drop to 20 points: I think I'm going to starve, which
then sets off all sorts of cravings.

Another thing I'm battling is feeling fat. I take jeans and shirts and
underwear out of the dryer and wonder who I thought I was kidding when
I bought such small clothes, or i figure that maybe they've shrunk
because surely those things won't fit me. As I type this, it's
laughable. But when I'm standing in front of the dryer, I'm not
laughing. In fact, I'm close to tears because I truly do despair about
what I'm going to wear now that all my fat clothes have been donated.
I put my clothes anyway and when I get dressed in the morning,
everything fits. If I keep eating, though, that won't last.

I mentioned all this today to a friend at work, and she looked at me
like I was crazy and said "Where could you possibly feel fat! My gawd,
you are so skinny." Honestly, I just don't see it. My head still sees
me back at 232 and feeling bad about much I weigh. And then those
people inside my head start taunting me: since I'm fat and will always
be fat, I might as well eat.

So that's what I'm dealing with. I'm gonna keep fighting this because
the rational part of my brain is still functioning. And I do not want
to go back. This week, though, I'll consider it a victory just to go
to my WI. I'm going to try to go to the meeting early and talk to the
leader. Thanks for listening.
--
Linda P
232/148.8/10% goal: 138

Sounds like you're having a bit of a low week. Just keep reminding yourself
how well you've done. there isn't a fat person inside of you waiting to get
out. She's gone and you don't have to let her back in to your life. Enjoy
your success and keep wearing those teeny clothes
All the very best
Hazell


Prairie Roots wrote in message
...
You know how sometimes we talk about the 'switch,' that indefinable
moment when weight loss became possible? Well, mine's got a short or
something's gone haywire with the circuitry. I did fine last week. But
since my WI, my eating's gone off the deepend. Don't know what set it
off, but I just can't seem to stop. Well, not entirely true.
Yesterday, I ate well under my points after 3 days of overeating. But
today, I ate over points again and my 35 flex points are long gone.
What's going on? For one, I think I have a mental block about 20 daily
target points. 22 points I can do, no problem. Something happens,
though, when I drop to 20 points: I think I'm going to starve, which
then sets off all sorts of cravings.

Another thing I'm battling is feeling fat. I take jeans and shirts and
underwear out of the dryer and wonder who I thought I was kidding when
I bought such small clothes, or i figure that maybe they've shrunk
because surely those things won't fit me. As I type this, it's
laughable. But when I'm standing in front of the dryer, I'm not
laughing. In fact, I'm close to tears because I truly do despair about
what I'm going to wear now that all my fat clothes have been donated.
I put my clothes anyway and when I get dressed in the morning,
everything fits. If I keep eating, though, that won't last.

I mentioned all this today to a friend at work, and she looked at me
like I was crazy and said "Where could you possibly feel fat! My gawd,
you are so skinny." Honestly, I just don't see it. My head still sees
me back at 232 and feeling bad about much I weigh. And then those
people inside my head start taunting me: since I'm fat and will always
be fat, I might as well eat.

So that's what I'm dealing with. I'm gonna keep fighting this because
the rational part of my brain is still functioning. And I do not want
to go back. This week, though, I'll consider it a victory just to go
to my WI. I'm going to try to go to the meeting early and talk to the
leader. Thanks for listening.
--
Linda P
232/148.8/10% goal: 138

Sounds like you're having a bit of a low week. Just keep reminding yourself
how well you've done. there isn't a fat person inside of you waiting to get
out. She's gone and you don't have to let her back in to your life. Enjoy
your success and keep wearing those teeny clothes
All the very best
Hazell


Prairie Roots wrote in message
...
You know how sometimes we talk about the 'switch,' that indefinable
moment when weight loss became possible? Well, mine's got a short or
something's gone haywire with the circuitry. I did fine last week. But
since my WI, my eating's gone off the deepend. Don't know what set it
off, but I just can't seem to stop. Well, not entirely true.
Yesterday, I ate well under my points after 3 days of overeating. But
today, I ate over points again and my 35 flex points are long gone.
What's going on? For one, I think I have a mental block about 20 daily
target points. 22 points I can do, no problem. Something happens,
though, when I drop to 20 points: I think I'm going to starve, which
then sets off all sorts of cravings.

Another thing I'm battling is feeling fat. I take jeans and shirts and
underwear out of the dryer and wonder who I thought I was kidding when
I bought such small clothes, or i figure that maybe they've shrunk
because surely those things won't fit me. As I type this, it's
laughable. But when I'm standing in front of the dryer, I'm not
laughing. In fact, I'm close to tears because I truly do despair about
what I'm going to wear now that all my fat clothes have been donated.
I put my clothes anyway and when I get dressed in the morning,
everything fits. If I keep eating, though, that won't last.

I mentioned all this today to a friend at work, and she looked at me
like I was crazy and said "Where could you possibly feel fat! My gawd,
you are so skinny." Honestly, I just don't see it. My head still sees
me back at 232 and feeling bad about much I weigh. And then those
people inside my head start taunting me: since I'm fat and will always
be fat, I might as well eat.

So that's what I'm dealing with. I'm gonna keep fighting this because
the rational part of my brain is still functioning. And I do not want
to go back. This week, though, I'll consider it a victory just to go
to my WI. I'm going to try to go to the meeting early and talk to the
leader. Thanks for listening.
--
Linda P
232/148.8/10% goal: 138

You may have temporary switch failure. We all get it at times. Some of
us are switched to Mad Gobbling by TOM: I get this! Gotta stuff the
carbs in at that time! Ho hum... It passes. I try to have something
like a zero point soup handy to shovel in when this happens.

--
Kate XXXXXX
Lady Catherine, Wardrobe Mistress of the Chocolate Buttons
http://www.diceyhome.free-online.co.uk
Click on Kate's Pages and explore!

You may have temporary switch failure. We all get it at times. Some of
us are switched to Mad Gobbling by TOM: I get this! Gotta stuff the
carbs in at that time! Ho hum... It passes. I try to have something
like a zero point soup handy to shovel in when this happens.

--
Kate XXXXXX
Lady Catherine, Wardrobe Mistress of the Chocolate Buttons
http://www.diceyhome.free-online.co.uk
Click on Kate's Pages and explore!

You may have temporary switch failure. We all get it at times. Some of
us are switched to Mad Gobbling by TOM: I get this! Gotta stuff the
carbs in at that time! Ho hum... It passes. I try to have something
like a zero point soup handy to shovel in when this happens.

--
Kate XXXXXX
Lady Catherine, Wardrobe Mistress of the Chocolate Buttons
http://www.diceyhome.free-online.co.uk
Click on Kate's Pages and explore!